You, and what you can expect.

So, you are wanting to understand why the world is in so much chaos. Why is there so much hatred, violence, and discrimination? Why are political ideals so apart from one another? Why are we always at war with someone? Why can’t the self-proclaimed  stewards of our world agree on any of the issues facing our planet?  Why are we so separated? Or perhaps you have decided that your life should mean more to you, and perhaps you are fed up with the worlds direction. You are not alone. 

Welcome to your new Life Sentence. A life sentence of changing your perceptions A life sentence of developing new understandings about yourself and the world around you, A life sentence of discovery both inside and outside of yourself. A life sentence to a new life where the influences and stresses from ego are recognized and understood. A life sentence of a healthier you.

This is a continually changing website, and like you, it will be constantly re-created, updated and revised.  The reason for this is, in seeking answers to the above questions, I discovered that researching conventional wisdom only supported the very negative activities that were going on in the world. The places I searched, to find the answers to these questions, were the very cause of the problems to which I was seeking answers. To find the answers I turned to the most unconventional resource I could find to ask the question “Why?” I turned to myself.

By turning to myself, I began asking questions like: “If I had the power to change the world, what would I do?” and “What keeps me from changing the world? and “If I could change the world would it be better of worse?” After years of asking myself these questions, and examining and comparing many sources of knowledge, one answer keep coming up. “You can change the world, but to change the world, the change must come from inside yourself.”constantly re-created, updated and revised. This is because, in seeking answers to these questions, I discovered that researching conventional reasoning only supported the very negative activities that were going on in the world. The very places I searched, to find the answers to these questions, were the very cause of the problems to which I was seeking answers. To find the answers I turned to the most unconventional resource I could find to ask the question “Why?” I turned to myself.

So what does that mean? I change myself and the world changes? I don’t get it. I started taking a good look at myself and realized the problem isn’t with the world, the problem is with me (or better yet, my perception of the world, and myself). My perception of the world was all wrong? What does that mean?

I discovered that my perceptions of everything came down to one issue, and that was my perceptions were created by my upbringing. What I learned in school, from my parents, from friends, from the religious establishments, from community leaders and from the news; all played a part in my perceptions. I was seeing the world through eyes that were programmed by my upbringing therefore, my upbringing was creating my perceptions.

So, if I want to see a different world, I must begin to perceive a different world, and to do this I would have to perceive myself through different eyes. To create these new eyes, I would have to change everything that was causing me to perceive the way I was perceiving. I had to develop a new base-line with which I perceived the world (and myself). The realization that this was going to be a major undertaking became overwhelming. Everything I was taught would have to be removed (de-programmed). I would have to develop new processes by which I could re-program myself allowing me to see the truth. It sounded so simple at the time.

Well, it has been a very difficult journey and this journey will never end. I am constantly de-programming and re-programming elements of myself so I can see myself and the world as it really is. My original programming was flawed, and my ego would step in the way of my acceptance of this.  I keep searching within to find the answers, and as the answers began to coalesce, waken resulted.

I came to realize that everything I was, was a lie (very hard for the ego to accept). This will also be the hardest realization you will have to make. The difficultly is, it will have to be an admission you must make to yourself. Your ego will be what gets in the way of your success, just as my ego got in my way. You are quite capable of dealing with your ego (and you must deal with it). Once you face the facts, that you have an ego, that your ego is not your friend, and that your ego lies to you, this is when changes within you begin.

This site, and this journey, will not be easy and will require you to expand your mind, or better yet, allow your reasoning mechanisms to move from your thinking-mind (ego) to your spirit-mind (ego-less). You will come to realize, as you peruse this sites content, your ego is your greatest enemy. Understand, that everything you have been taught and all of your belief systems will come into question as you progress. You will learn that we are the product of our teachings and belief systems and our very perceptions of the world we live in (and how we react to these perceptions) are controlled by these teachings and belief systems. This is when you will understand why I abbreviate belief systems (BS). You will also discover that not only do we live is an illusion, it is an illusion within and illusion within and illusion. Every time you think you have found the truth (or reality) you will discover it is just another illusion. Have patience.

Change is the most frightening word we know and the prospect of the experience induces a state of panic. For myself and most people I have met “change” is a very difficult action for us to accept. Change elicits stress and an uncomfortable feeling that we have failed. The very thought of change creates an air of concern, fear, and feeling lost. When we attempt to implement it, ego rears its head in defiance encouraging us to fail.

Change requires of us a purposeful commitment to honesty. We will have to be honest to each other of course, but above everything else, we must be honest with ourselves. What is that old joke? How many psychologists does it take to change a light-bulb? Only one, but the light-bulb must want to be change. Well light-bulb, welcome to change.

I hope you find the information here helpful in your journey and remember that you are not alone.